* A man, the Rain, and a Couple of Days *

It’s Raining again,
Reeling my mind,
To those couple of days.
The man and the rain;
Pouring on my windowpane.
That bus and the station…
Still so close,
Again we can be within reach.
These waters hold, in my heart,
Fading memories of our time apart.
The story I relate
With sincere glad adulate.
Of a man, the rain and a couple of days.

* IN THIS TOGETHER *

Should I've seen this coming?
Should I've known this, shouldn't have let this happen
My mistake alright, stuck again
Doing my thing
Too alike, yet far apart
What felt so good once is breaking me
And tearing us apart again

Don't you see
We're in this together,
You and me
One on one forever

I know it's self-inflicted
We're way to desperate
Way to addicting
But I cant help the way I feel
I know it's time to be strong
Now when all hope is gone
And when what felt so good once is breaking me
And tearing us apart again

AND IN YOUR TROUBLED EYES I CAN SEE
SOMEONE WHO CARRIED ME SOMEHOW
LIKE FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND
You've been behind me all along
We got it wrong from the start
Now it's you and me let's hit it on

Don't you see it's you and me against the world
'cause we're in this together,
You and me
One on one forever

This song belongs to one of the commercials of my favorite TV series: ER
I have watched ER since I was 11 years old and ever since I have become obsessed with it because although it has been in the air for 15 years (yes, I know, a lot) every season there are new and fresh stories as well as characters and and special guesses. It's been so long since ER is produced that thanks to it George Clooney became one of the most famous personalities of Hollywood.
It is quite difficult to explain what the show is about. On one hand because it has changed through time in every aspect but always with a main theme which is carrying on with life always knowing that you have chosen to live for the others and not for you. All the characters are doctors whose specialty is the emergency room and each episode there is a new struggle in different situations and patients. And time to time the producers broadcast quite shocking episodes that seems to be so real and they are perfectly well-done that once it has finished you stand in front of the TV thinking about nothing else rather what you have just watched.
Through all the years I have watched the program there have always been some episodes that have shocked me in such intensive way that I would never forget them. For example the ones that were filmed in Africa, exactly in the Republic of the Congo, in which one of the main doctors decides to go there to be part of the Red Cross volunteers. In these episodes many realities are shown as I have never seen them before: the way the doctors have to work, the facilities scarcity, the terrorists attitude towards the volunteers and the native citizens, the government corruption, to name a few. After watching these episodes I started making some research on the topic and I started to develop brand new skills and opinions towards different themes, poverty, discrimination, who I wanna be, etc. Of course what I am telling you happened when I was younger - but what I am telling you carried me to be and to react and to perform as I do.

I am one of those people who think that music and TV have an unique potential that must be exploded but in the right and appropriate way. I have always learned a lot from those lyrics that say a lot about society, politics, history as well as from those series and journalistic programs that teach you about the world encouraging you to be day by day a better and more prepared person.

. We are nOt alone .

. . . I am groping about in this painful darkness, so alone and full of spiritual tears, a silent cry that reaches out beyond the infinite galaxies, directed to heaven with a resounding echo. But where are you? Why don’t you say something? What are you busy doing while I cry out my pain, my powerlessness, my solitude? Just clench your teeth, I told myself, and believe beyond all of this that you feel. Believe beyond that which is unbelievable, beyond the impossible, lose everything. Nothing, nothing should remain. I felt my soul crying. I had nothing left, a nothingness that was filled with everything, God alone . . .

but the answer always arrives * *

. . April Melodies * *

She closes her eyes because she doesn't wanna accept the truth about herself, myself . .

She looks up to the sky trying to find the sun as a source of illumination . . She tries to find the stars in order to reach happiness before dying. She has always loved the sea and the April sky as well as walking down the main street during winter time and the summer's poetry written in her hand.
She is such a mystery for me. She is a lover of everything that no one can see - She is a dreamer ever since she knew about her destiny.

She is who I wanna be - She is the mystery I am going to discover when she'd let me get in to the place where I have always wanted to be . . . .
HER WORLD

. . . the places you have come to fear the most *

The places you Have come to Fear the Most * *

"Buried deep as you can Dig inside yourself, And covered with A perfect shell, Such a charming Beautiful exterior. Laced with a brilliant smile And shining eyes Perfect posture But you're barely scraping by You're barely scraping by This is one time That you can't fake It hard enough to please Everyone or anyone at all. And the grave that You refuse to leave The refuge that You've built to flee The places that You have come to fear the most. Buried deep as you can Dig inside yourself, And hidden in the public eye. Such a stellar Monument to loneliness. Laced with brilliant smiles And shining eyes And perfect makeup But you're barely scraping by"

I am a coward, such a coward, that I always write what I feel because I don't what to cry over these feelings - I don't want to even realize that I am living within them.

I am a piece of poetry that is just telling all about the essence of sadness and fear

I am the happiest person when you are by my side
when I am able to kiss your blessed lips
when I am able to love you just in a simply sigh.
when cold turns to be a metaphor when our bodies come together
when your words are lyrics for my soul.

I am really happy . . when you are happy too.

But, what happen when you don't wanna be happy in the same way I wanna be? You start messing up my whole world at your own way, believing that you are such a magnificent artist that you are able to conquer foreign eyes just to leave them later on.
You play as you wouldn't know the rules - You play as the same way the wind plays ignoring my presence every now and then.

You are such a blind, deaf and heartless person . . .

Eyes that cannot see a poor girl who gives her life for your poetry; Ears that cannot hear myself yelling at night and heart that doesn't want to receive sincere and real love.
You are a coward, such a coward, that you always write what you feel because you don't what to cry over those feelings - You don't want to even realize that you are living within them.

Life has always treated you in the worst and hardest way, you have always cried endless salty rivers, Life has always been your worst enemy

But I just wanted to be your friend
I just wanted to simply love you twenty four seven
I just wanted to show you up in the sky the sun shining constantly
I just wanted to heal your injuries, to dry your tears once for all.
I just wanted to be part of your unique and lovely smile.

You didn't accept me - You wanted to - But you couldn't because your cowardice and fear didn't allow you to do it. And I cried you ever since you left me.

The truth is that I have never stopped loving you.

Linkin Park - What I've Done

IT'S JUST GREAT (:

IN THIS FAREWELL,
THERE’S NO BLOOD,
THERE’S NO ALIBI.
‘CAUSE I’VE DRAWN REGRET,
FROM THE TRUTH,
OF A THOUSAND LIES.

SO LET MERCY COME,
AND WASH AWAY…

WHAT I’VE DONE.
I’LL FACE MYSELF,
TO CROSS OUT WHAT I’VE BECOME.
ERASE MYSELF,
AND LET GO OF WHAT I’VE DONE.

PUT TO REST,
WHAT YOU THOUGHT OF ME.
WHILE I CLEAN THIS SLATE,
WITH THE HANDS,
OF UNCERTAINTY.

SO LET MERCY COME,
AND WASH AWAY…

WHAT I’VE DONE.
I’LL FACE MYSELF,
TO CROSS OUT WHAT I’VE BECOME.
ERASE MYSELF,
AND LET GO OF WHAT I’VE DONE.

FOR WHAT I’VE DONE

I START AGAIN,
AND WHATEVER PAIN MAY COME.
TODAY THIS ENDS,
I’M FORGIVING WHAT I’VE DONE.

I’LL FACE MYSELF,
TO CROSS OUT WHAT I’VE BECOME.
ERASE MYSELF,
AND LET GO OF WHAT I’VE DONE.
(NA NA NA NA, NA NA NA NA, NA NA NA NA, NA NA NA NA)
WHAT I’VE DONE.

"All day long with heavY metAl songs by your side"

Just a phase . .

"I do no longer belong to these lands,
I have been forgotten and
I stand alone, trying to stay alive"

"Arms that are invisibles to the eyes but not to the soul

that protect you and dry the tears from your face.
An unconditional friend who is by your side everywhere at the moment you need it.
It brings you the chance to dream, the freedom to escape.
It brings you the opportunity to fly at least for a while . . "

"I feel so empty here without you. I am looking for you, where are you now?
Where is the man, that long time ago, showed me the way life of the hopeless people could change into something amazing? - You have gone. You are not where I left you.
The chains are on the floor and you are not tied to them. You have walked away leaving me here, alone , with nothing else to do or to feel."

"But my destiny has been already chosen and I can’t change it. So it ‘s the end of a story without a sky, without a sun. A story with darkness all around."

((this phases where written by me when I was 13 years old))

Dear Mary Poppins,

"The biggest word you ever head and this is how it goes
Oh, supercalifragilistic expialidocious
Even though the sound of it is
something quite atrocious
If you say it loud enough
you'll always sound precocious
Supercalifragilistic expialidocious"

"A spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down
The medicine go down - Medicine go down
Just a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine
go down in the most delightful way"



"Have you even seen
The grass so green
Or a bluer sky
Oh, it's a jolly holiday with Mary
Mary makes your heart so light
When the day is gray and ordinary
Mary makes the sun shine bright
Oh, happiness is blooming all around her
The daffodils are smiling at the dove
When Mary holds your hand you feel so grand
Your heart starts beating like a big brass band"

"While the moon drifts in the skies

Stay awake don't close your eyes

Though the world is fast asleep

Though your pillow's soft and deep

You're not sleepy as you seem

Stay awake don't nod and dream

Stay awake don't nod and dream"  

Dear Mary Poppins,
DO NEVER FORGET THAT THE LITTLE CHILDREN NEED YOU BECAUSE YOU BRING TO US THE REAL MEANING OF BELIEVING . .

YOU MAKE OURSELVES REMEMBERED THAT WE ARE FULL OF IMAGINATION . .

IN YOUR WORLD THERE IS NO SADNESS NEITHER PAIN.

YOUR WORLD IS WHERE DRAMS COME TRUE . . WE WANT TO LIVE WHERE YOU LIVE MARY POPPINS.

THANK YOU FOR GIVING US SOMETHING WORTH LIVING FOR,

THANK YOU FOR MAKING US REALIZED THAT OUR HEART IS MUCH MORE STRONGER THAN OUR MIND.

YOU ARE WHAT EVERY HUMAN BEING NEEDS
A SPOONFUL OF SUGAR

The perfect song in an Imperfect Moment *

I don't mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
I don't like illusions I can't see
Them clearly

I don't care no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually
What you'll do

I don't mind…
I don't care…
As long are you're here

Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same

Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
And in between it always seems too long
All of a sudden

And I have the skill, yeah I have the will
To breathe you in while I can
However long you stay
Is all that I am

I don't mind…
I don't care…
As long are you're here

Wrong or right
Black or white
If I close my eyes
I's all the same

In my life
The compromise
I close my eyes
It's all the same

((thanks Vale M for showing me this song))

I would like to close my eyes and never opening them again at least for a while.

There are feeling and thoughts that I keep inside of me hidden from the outside world; no one knows about them, sometimes not even myself. But recently I felt that I couldn't keep on fighting on my own. I simply felt that I wanted to give up just for a few minutes because the weight on my shoulders was killing me.
I decided to go to Church early in the evening in order to pray before Mass.
It was only me and him although it was full of people on their knees giving themselves into his grace. I cried and I laughed; I read the two first lectures and I asked him to help all of us to live each day with happiness and faith.

These three hours in Church were the only hours of peace that I had during my whole weekend - Yes, it was a harsh weekend indeed. And at some point I felt weak and abandoned and I am still feeling a little like that.
Right in this moment I am not feeling well and I just need someone to hug me because I am sad.

The song above is the perfect song with the perfect rhythm for this imperfect moment in which my home is a broken home, when I am missing both of you too much and I am feeling under pressure almost every minute of every hour of every day.

I love spring time and the blue sky with its perfect clouds

It hurts too mUch . . .

"It's never easy to understand why memories hold our hand
But people let go . . . "

I don't know which direction should I take
Just to get to you once for all.
Sometimes I think that you are the one that is wrong
But I am starting to think that I am the one who is not right.
Because it hurts too much to go to bed
Knowing that you have gone, long time ago.

I am giving up because I can't keep on pretending that I am fine
I am just saying that you have caused so much pain on me
That I can't even find the suitable words to explain it.
I would like to scream once more to the world
That I am a human being too -
Would someone ever ask me if I am alright?

It hurts too much because I am feeling like crying
But the tears will not come out
Until my time would come to take me away.
I have learned that no one cares about how I am
But I will keep caring about everyone else
Because that's the way He have taught me to be

In the end He is the only one who is always by me side
Carrying me on his shoulders
He Is a person whose grace is the most beautiful thing
I have ever known.


You are the only one who loves me for who I am . . .

"I know I am dead on the surface, but I am screaming underneath"

Punk Rock Music *

Singing the songs I love the most -

Loving God's grace - Praying for you to come back,
Trying not to cry - Looking for an excuse
Dying, Living and Flying.

Many times I tried not to tell you the truth about myself
Many times I thought I could do everything perfectly
This time I am feeling different
This time I am enjoying what I have
Who I am is who I wanna be

Punk Rock music and a History booK
Laying on my bed thinking about everyone else
Reminding myself that I am happy - God dammed I am happy

Thinking about what I have to do for tomorrow
I find myself living a beautiful adventure
Where there is no rules
Where I am never alone

I felt in love with you, Dear God.
I felt in love with life
I can't believe this is happening to me,
Lucky browned-eye girl
This is my time, This is my place


. . . . She likes Papa Roach and Sex Pistols too

Dr Hans Keirstead's stem cell researcH **

First of all we should go deeper into this scientific discovery in order to make up a strong and clear opinion towards it. It is a complex and quite controversy subject that nowadays has become an issue not only for the governmental institutions and scientists but also for us, the ordinary people.
Embryonic stem cells (ES cells) are stem cells (primal cells found in all multi-cellular organisms that retain the ability to renew themselves through mitotic cell division and can differentiate into a diverse range of specialized cell types) derived from the inner cell mass of an early stage embryo known as a blastocyst. Human embryos reach the blastocyst stage 4-5 days post fertilization, at which time they consist of 50-150 cells.
In addition, ES cells are pluripotent (they are able to differentiate into all derivatives of the three primary germ layers)
ES cells maintain pluripotency through multiple cell divisions. The presence of pluripotent adult stem cells remains a subject of scientific debate - Another point to have in mind is that because of their plasticity and potentially unlimited capacity for self-renewal, ES cell therapies have been proposed for regenerative medicine and tissue replacement after injury or disease.
To date, no approved medical treatments have been derived from embryonic stem cell research (ESCR). This is not unusual for a new medical research field; in this case, the first human embryonic stem cell line was only reported in 1998.
As I said before stem cell research is a controversy issue - We are in the presence of two antagonistic group of people, each of them with strong and decisive arguments about embryonic stem cells. This is largely due to techniques used in the creation and usage of human embryonic stem cells. Human embryonic stem cell research is particularly controversial because, with the present state of biotechnology, most techniques used to create embryonic stem cell lines require the destruction of human embryostherapeutic cloning.
One one hand, , medical researchers in the field argue that it is necessary to pursue embryonic stem cell research because the resultant technologies are expected to have significant medical potential, and that the embryos used for research are only those slated for destruction anyway.
On the other hand, the opponents opinion towards this research can be summed up by the fact that, once an egg is fertilized, unless inhibited, it will develop into a fully-developed adult. This is often related to religious doctrines which assert that conception marks the beginning of human life or the presence of a soul. Based upon this reasoning, the subsequent argument against embryonic stem cell research is that human life is inherently valuable and cannot be involuntarily destroyed to save another.

The radio program we heard in class was about what I have said before. This program not only mentioned what was this discovery about but also presented to the listeners the advantages and disadvantages of stem cells.
Stem cell can replace any type of cell of the human organism and consequently they would be the cure for many mortal diseases. In this sense, even paralyzed people would be able to walk again thanks to the replacement of the damage cell by embryonic stem cells. Scientists say that diabetes, heart disease and others would be cured too.
Despite of the different opinions among the U.S government and the ordinary people, the truth is that a more technological laboratory is being built in San Francisco State in order to carry on with the investigations.

As far as I am concerned, this brand new discovery is an important advance in health treatments and scientific research; but it is also a threat to human rights. In this way, we must have presented that although we are helping many sick people to find a cure for their permanent and painful diseases, we are killing another human beings. In my opinion, from the instant that an ovule is fertilized by a spermatozoon life has already started.
Every single person, even those that has not born yet, has the right of living and growing up - But also, those people who suffer from diabetes, heat disease or other that would be treated with stem cells have the right of living a healthy and harmonious life. So, scientists should find a treatment that would save these lives from suffering but without threating any other born or unborn person.

The gen ! (: Focolaris Movement - (L)

And now I present to you the young adults from the Focolaris Movement: THE GEN !!! The truth is that every time I think about what I am going to write about now for my English Blog the ideas that come to my mind are all about O'higgins, the movement and these incredible persons I have presented to you some lines above. Maybe the reason why is that I am truly in love with these people and this charisma we live for . . . Yesterday was a month anniversary since Lu Buffo past away. She was and is still a gen - Although, we don't have her physically speaking she is always by our side and even with a greater presence - She is now one of God's saints. So, yesterday we all came together to have a special mass in her memory. It was a unique moment because we felt her stronger than ever before and also because her parents said some words that are indescribable that made us feel proud of had been her friend and companion. What I loved in the most about yesterday was the fact that all of us, the young adults from the Movement, were bound by the same charisma and spirit that we chose to live in every moment of our life. And the mass was a proof of our strength and our commitment as well as our love for each other.

These people from the pictures are so SPECIAL to me - they mean so much that I can't imagine leaving them in the end of the year , and I don't want to even think about it. I know that I have to live this present moment and I am doing it but I have learned so much from them and I have lived so many experiences with each of them that they are more than friends to me - At this point they are like BROTHERS AND SISTERS !!! : )

Sometimes what I feel is so strong that makes me cry, but not because of sadness but because of joy and happiness . . Life has a great meaning for me since the moment I met them - Now I am able to say that I have something really worth living for.

- - Siempre en Camino - -

As Lu Buffo said before passing away "no se desvien del camino, porque yo los espero allí"

I Miss You . . ):

It has been a long time since I told you all about my dreams and nightmares. It has been so long since the last time I saw you walking out from Church as you were talking to your best friend.
The truth is that I can't stop thinking about the last e-mail you sent me while I was in the U.S; neither about that time up in the mountains when you hold my hand while I was desperately crying just to make me smile . . .

What hurts me in the most is that I see you every day and you are always around me, but I can't talk to you and you can't talk to me. I spent long minutes looking at you thinking about the times we laughed, and about our long and incredible talks - I can't deny that I am still able to recall that time when we were looking at the city lights while we were listening to "Stuck in a moment" by U2.
Last year you safe me from my malnutrition problem and you carried me to a place I thought I would never meet. You don't know how much you mean to me, actually you are "something" I appreciate so much . . just because you, unconscious about it, led me to God's grace.
I owned you an important part of myself . . You do know everything about me - With a look into my eyes you discover how am I and what I am thinking about . .
And all that times you asked me to go out to have our monthly friends talk and you did nothing else than giving me advices and instructions. But those times you told me all about YOU were unique, and they will be kept in my inside forever.
I thought I was over you because I lost you as my friend 3 months ago . . I thought that I didn't care anymore.

But I realized that I miss you, and I remembered you every hour of every day of every month.

I need you because you know all about me.
I need you to safe me once more.

I simply NEED YOU, as I have always needed you.

Report: “The new view from the top” – Newsweek Magazine *

Almost six years ago one of the most shocking and dramatic events were happening in the United States of America. We are still able to recall the moment in which we turned on the TV and watched the World Trade Center falling down in ashes and one of the Pentagon’s wings completely gone. That was the moment in which not only human history but also international diplomacy took a brand new direction.

It was the first time that a terrorist attack hit the U.S and affected the citizens

directly. As many political analysts once claimed, important policy changes were carrying on after 9/11 and specially in regard to external relationships. President Bush (elected in 2000 and 2004) immediately decided some weeks after the day of fire to declare a “Global War Against Terrorism” – Although, he wasn’t backed up by the United Nations Security Committee; he achieved to join forces with the Republican Party and the different national security organisms support, and the members of NATO’s troops to star war in Middle East. At this point, after five years of fighting, the consequences it has brought can’t be ignored anymore and in this sense American people are starting to work out new ways to make this conflict stop once for all.

In a beginning, when war was officially declared (10/07/01) the U.S government announced that Afghanistan would be the first target to be attacked because it was the place where Osama bin Laden, the headmaster of Al Qaide, was hidden. Afterwards they attacked Irak justifying their economic interests basically based in oil by claiming that it was a country that was living under a tirany led by Saddam Hussein and that democracy must be re-established.

Another aspect I would like to point out about U.S explanations to justify war is that at some point, those who decided on aggression must pay a price, or aggression will be universal. Specialists say that nowadays terrorism is the main threat for North America but the country took long time ago the necessary steps to face it, at least in their own way. We should bear in mind that there are many international and national interests in regard to Middle East. It is not an easy but really a complex reality that has to be solved urgently.

The truth after all is that U.S citizens are paying a terrible price for the decisions the president and his staff once took after 9/11. But also we should analyze whether a nation can declare war to another one in spite of not have been supported by the United Nations and passing over international regulations. Is there any valid explanation to sacrifice such a huge number of lives and causing serious damages in many aspects just in order to obtain nothing else rather than economic benefits?

My Mother *

Looking for me as a farmer looks for his lost sheep

God chose you to look after me every single day and night
And you brave and full of happiness accepted me
Giving your thankfulness to the sun and the moon for being your companions
always and forever in my upbringing
In the balance between the good and the evil you
chose to be a disciple of caring in regard of
how much a mom is able to love her child
Not everyone has your strength - not everyone chooses
like you did - And I simply love you because you said YES.

Night months you suffered from nightmares and insomnia
And another six months you didn't listen to another melody
rather than my whimsical and tough crying.
Since the beginning you made me lots of cloth to dress me as a Christmas tree
Until this point you didn't change and I hope you would never do.

All along these years you gave me love
and you taught me the art of being better with the passing days.
Since I gave my first breath you watched after me with your big eyes
That have scared me that much
but at the same time have loved me
In every adventure I have had.

You gave me everything and you spoiled me as every mom does
But you taught me to love from a smile to the stars in the Grey sky of June
Seventeen years old I am and I appreciated every single day of the year
for having you as my guide in this journey full of fears and joys.

My best friend and my confident
is a beautiful and incredible person
that it is also my dear "mami" . . .

And "mami" have become my favorite word since a long time ago.

I don't wanna miss any hug never again because I wouldn't like it to be the last one
And it would be never be - I know it for sure.

Starting Once Again *

It is being a long time since the last time I wrote something in my notebook - I do love to write but I don't find the time neither the space to do it.

Writing is something magic - It is just a beautiful to express ourselves for who we truly are. There is no one that judges you or tears you apart - It is YOU and your pen writing all along the lines about whatever you feel to write about.

THERE IS NO RULES

Sometimes I come to think about the beauty of writing and reading and the truth about them. I could spend my whole life doing both peacefully sitting in my porch looking at the sunset coming towards me every evening.
So, I asked myself the reason why I do not write during my days, and I simply answer because I can't, as well as I can't go to the Church every day or to spend time reading books I choose to read. But at the same time I blame myself for thinking like that because it is my responsibility to be able to do all those things and to find the necessary time for my own. But if I think about my daily activities I come to conclude that I spend time doing what I also love to do.

In this way, after all that thinking I realized that in the end life is all about to find the exact balance between decisions, obligations and desires.

After being away for two weeks and an half, I am coming back home full of faith, hope and a stronger spirit - On one hand, I can't stop thinking about all the homework I must do to catch on with my classmates but on the other hand I am happier than never before because I trusted and followed God's will and I did what I had to do as my sister, daughter and human being role.

I am re-starting a new period of my life in which I compromise with myself and with God to be the disciple He wants me to be by living every single minute his concrete love towards the others in regard to my obligations, desires and activities.

THE CEREMONY!

TODAY IS MY SISTER GRADUATION AND BIRTHDAY !!!!! YEAHHH =)

The ceremony started at 8:00 am and it finished like 11:30 am, it was truly long, but it was amazing.

It all started with a great parade in which all he graduates that were like 1700 were divided in the different departments and with the scotish band they stated walking through the university main street until arriving in the DOME, that it is a VERY BUT VERY LARGE place where they carried on all the sports during winter. Like the super dome in New Orleans.

The dome was full of friends and parentes who were so exited and we were all screaming and yelling to our respective graduates.

The presentation itself was great because different important personalities of the university made some spechees that were quite inspiering and also the way the ceremony was organized and carried on was really awsome, besides it was a great experience because it is like living a completely different graduation than what I am used to in Argentina.

It took like 2 hours until mi sis went to the stage to get her diploma but IT WAS SO SHOCKING when they called her in a rare and funny accent !!!! With my family and a great friend of my sister whose name is Lindsay we started shouting to her and all the people looked at us like what is wrong with them ? But we didn't care because we are argentinians and we are like this !! I just want to justify myself , let me be happy!!!

The whole university was decorated so beautifully and at the end of the ceremony they started singing the VANDALS song and a lot of things started to fall from the ceiling and IT WAS OHHH THAT'S COOL !!!

We took lots of pictures after the graduation and they are amazing , I think that I will print all of them !!

We are so happy of being able to be here and at some moment we can't believe where we are and what we have achieved - I am so thankful with GOD, you are truly awsome !!!!

At this point we are going out to have dinner, my family and Lindsay.. she is great, I love her, she is like one Tinnirello at this point !!!

And we are going to have even much more fun because tomorrow we are driving to Seattle !!!!

See you all, enjoy your life in Tucuman !! because I am enjoying mine... !!!

it always fixs me . . : )

When you try your best, but you don´t succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need

When you feel so tired, but you can´t sleep

Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can´t replace

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below

When you too in love to let it go

If you never try you´ll never know

Just watch and learn

Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you

After Vale Becker presentation, there was a song playing in my mind all day long, which is the one above and it is called FIX YOU and it is sang by COLDPLAY (one of my favorite bands).
As Vale said before the video presentation, for her that song meant an important turning point in a Moment in her life in which she thought of giving up because frustration, sadness and desperation Were much stronger than hope and faith – But after listening to the song she started realizing About what life truly is and all the amazing things that God had prepared for her. It sounds a bit strange, because it’s just a song, but during my life I came to realize that there are some songs That have such a strong message that are able to save you or even destroy you.

When I moved to Tucuman in 2005 my life became a living hell in which I didn’t find something To believe in: my sister was gone as well as my father, my mum was destroyed because Of all the economical and family problems we had, I was starting a new life and in regard I was Missing My B.A classmates so much that I couldn't stand all the new people that surrounded me.
To sum up, I had created a chaos in which I was slowly drowning and there was no one out there that could At least save me – It was really hard, I remember, because I cried like three times a day and I didn’t want to Go to school and the times I went I spent long minutes locked in the restrooms far away from all the boys And girls that nowadays are my classmates.
Little by little I started to find the answers and the correct directions to a brad new and different life from The one I used to have in B.A – There were new people and a whole new scenario in comparison to the One I grew up. I must confess that in the beginning I didn’t care at all about what was going on in YB Or San Miguel, I just wanted to go back home and living all the chaos and sadness behind at least For a week. But eventually, things started to
change – DRASTICALLY CHANGED.
The most amazing and Greatest thing that happened to me during these years was to know the Focolaris Movement and its Principles as well as their ideals. And this awesome moment actually happened to me during living in Tucuman (in the place and moment I expected in the less). This movement have given me like an 80 % of what I truly am and thanked to it I have met amazing People and I was able to have experiences that only a few have the opportunity to have.
I have changed a lot since I met the movement and of course I am a completely different person Since I came back from O’HIGGGINS, which is a city that directly belongs to the FOCOLARIS and it is Located in B.A providence – like an hour away from Junin.
I was in O’higgins for a month but the time spent there is unforgettable and will be presented in my Life until my final days. Thanks to them I have discovered GOD and everything he represented. I am proud to say that I love my GOD more than anything else and that right in this moment I am The happiest person in the world because I am never alone, HE is always besides me – I am so happy Because I let him get in my soul and since that moment he have never left my side.
In conclusion, these 2 and a half years have meant a lot to me – not only because of all the Suffering but also for the beautiful experiences I was able to live with different persons and in
Different places! Thanks to all the difficult problems, I am able to claim nowadays that I have more than what I need to be REALLY, BUT REALLY HAPPY.
So, the song above have been by me side since the moment I moved to Tucuman in 2005 and
It sounded whenever I was sad or happy, depressed or full of faith – It have been my best
Friend in the long and cloudy nights and in the shiny and lovely days.
“Fix you” meant and means an important part of my life in which everything changed, in which I Changed. It was the melody that gave me the strength enough to keep on walking in this world.

MY TRIP !!!

After three long and exhausting days I have arrived to the U.S, exactly to Moscow, Idaho Which is the state where my sister lives since 2002.
The trip was really awesome because I was able to meet Miami, Chicago and Spokane

airports and of course they where really shocking, especially Chicago’s because it was so Big and full of restaurants, halls and gates everywhere that in a moment I didn’t know Where to go. Besides I traveled with my dad who doesn’t know English, not even the way to say “hello”, so all the responsibility laid on me, to make the check-in, to departure the baggage, to find the gates, just to name a few of the activities that I carried on. It was really FUN!!!
Then, I took three different planes in order to arrive to MOSCOW, it is so far away
But really FAR AWAY – But it really worth it !Tomorrow is my sister’s graduation and I am very exited because I wasn’t able to Participate in her college life until this moment, and for me this moment means Everything, as well as for my parents.
In 2006 when my mum asked me if I wanted to come hear I told her that I really wanna it But that I couldn’t live school for so long but then with the passing months I realized that I wanted something more for me, not only being an IB GIRL but also a person who did MEET THE REAL WORLD which is not written in books but it is showed outdoors. I know that I don’t even meet a third part of what the world truly is but something that I have always wanted since I was 13 years old is to never let the study become MY LIFE. I am not saying that if your life is studying you are a loser, I am just saying that it Is what I choose to live; I don’t know if it is wrong or right, I just know that it is what My heart told me some years ago and still tells me.
My family is everything for me, especially my sister who is one of the greatest persons I
Have even known, and for her this moment is very important because she didn’t have
A high school graduation, so for her this is the only ceremony she would ever had.
On the other hand, she spent all these eyes doing all her stuff by herself – without having Us at her side – and this is really, for me, admirable. I think that not everybody has the Strength enough to live its country and fly away to a foreign place in the age of
Seventeen. Not even me.
This moment of my life is going to be presented in my life until the day I died because I
Am going to meet different cultures, places, regions and especially people who have
Another ways and points of view.
I am really looking forward to keeping this trip on – On Sunday I am leaving for Seattle
And then We are flying to Miami and there we are having a four day cruise and finally
We are going to ORLANDO !!! I am really HAPPY right now.

I have just arrived from watching a movie called "Blood Diamond" and I am still shocked, and I truly think that I would be shocked for too many months.
I couldn't help crying during and in the end of the movie, in a way I felt guilty because I do have everything and more than what I need to live, in another way because I do anything to help those people, those KIDS and finally I realized that I cried because it made me realized that all of us don't know a little f*cking thing about anything that is going on somewhere else besides our tiny world.

I do believe in God - I love my God more than anything else in this world because HE never leaves me alone and HE is my faith by which I keep on living and walking through life.
But I have to confess that today I will be the one that judge HIM and ask him WHY DO YOU ABANDON THEM? I have met your grace and your wisdom - I know about your love towards us, your sons - You have showed me that you are real, that you are the greatest thing that WE AS HUMAN BEINGS HAVE.
So, I don't understand HOW ARE PEOPLE KILL EACH OTHER WHILE LIVING IN A SAME COMMUNITY WITH THE SAME RELIGION AND THE SAME STANDARD OF LIVING? WHY ARE CHILDREN KIDNAP AND TRANSFORM INTO SOLDIERS? - WHY DO WE PERMIT THIS TO HAPPEN? - WHY DO YOU PERMIT THIS TO HAPPEN? -


When I was 14 years old I thought that my destiny was to travel to Africa, exactly to the Democratic Republic of Congo, because I felt that I have too many since I was a kid and the children from there haven't have nothing at all since they were born - And they live in such a great and inhuman condition; those who don't have HIV, they have mortal diseases that were defeated in the first world during the Industrial Revolution. Or those kids and adults that die because malnutrition because they don't have even the food to eat at least once a day.
So, then everyone judged me that while my country was also dying because of malnutrition I would left and go to another continent - So I decided to stay and to study and to achieved the knowledge necessary to become a decent politician and help MY nation to become a great nation and solving poverty, injustice and inequality.
But then, today I realized that maybe my dear God doesn't want me here but there. Once He sent me a phase from the bible that claims: "Quiero que se comporten como verdaderos discípulos del Evangelio de Cristo" - This phase has become my destiny, my purpose in life byt which I would march towards my finally meeting with God. The meaning of this phase which is a long written piece gave me the answers to all my doubts about my future, about every single uncertain thing that I had.
Now, I become to realize that while I was asking HIM why did he permit that situation in Africa, I wasn't asking me WHY DID I PERMIT THAT SITUATION? My mother told me some minutes ago that I wasn't able to help them, AM I? I don't know and I do not want to know because I believe in grace and I believe in hope - I believe that peace and love is much more stronger than death, desolation and some destructive weapons as well as power, money and ambitious people.

As I live day by day I find myself facing different kind of situations - Now, I find myself thinking that while some of us are thinking about the trip to Bariloche or whatever, others are dying - others are being kidnap to be taught to become soldiers at my age or maybe younger than me.
While millions of people have lost everything because of war and poverty I am flighting to USA in a trip family.
While billions haven't have not even food enough to eat once in a day I am thinking about not eating in the next trip to the mountains just because I find myself too fat. And not just me is willing to give up eating . . We just don't know or care about what we f*cking have.

I sward that I try to learn every day of my life something about what's going on around the world, or at least to realize that our bubble it is not the real world.
Until now I thought that I wasn't living in my "metro cuadrado" but now I came to realize that yes I was.

So, I write this monologue to make me remember that I have a compromise with not only my society but with a whole continent - I believe in my God and I believe in myself. This is what, in the end, I truly Have.

Maybe one day every one of us will compromise to live for himself and for the others and that would be the day in which the world 'd start to be different - too dammed different.

- Written promises -

Open up your soul to what uncertain is
Always remembering that everything may happen
And you would be able to stand up to it painfully
Or love it at every moment of your life now and there.

Living in a strange world for me
I am trying to survive to so much news
I am trying to learn to as I haven't learned before.

I can't do it perfectly,
I can't believe what it is about
The words that I would never speak
are uncertainties to my heart

I am wishing to live in an eternal dream forever.

Deep changes to an infinite direction
It is so dammed hard to understand what it 's impossible to understand
I would love to know it all by once
And being perfect to his eyes
But I know that I will find you in each one of them
And I will love you and worship you because you mean everything to me

I know that it is true
And I will eternally live
I know that you have always been by me side
And I promise you I WILL NEVER ABANDON YOU
FROM NOW TO THE REST OF MY LIFE.