It hurts too mUch . . .

"It's never easy to understand why memories hold our hand
But people let go . . . "

I don't know which direction should I take
Just to get to you once for all.
Sometimes I think that you are the one that is wrong
But I am starting to think that I am the one who is not right.
Because it hurts too much to go to bed
Knowing that you have gone, long time ago.

I am giving up because I can't keep on pretending that I am fine
I am just saying that you have caused so much pain on me
That I can't even find the suitable words to explain it.
I would like to scream once more to the world
That I am a human being too -
Would someone ever ask me if I am alright?

It hurts too much because I am feeling like crying
But the tears will not come out
Until my time would come to take me away.
I have learned that no one cares about how I am
But I will keep caring about everyone else
Because that's the way He have taught me to be

In the end He is the only one who is always by me side
Carrying me on his shoulders
He Is a person whose grace is the most beautiful thing
I have ever known.


You are the only one who loves me for who I am . . .

"I know I am dead on the surface, but I am screaming underneath"