11/05/2007

it always fixs me . . : )


When you try your best, but you don´t succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need

When you feel so tired, but you can´t sleep

Stuck in reverse

When the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can´t replace

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below

When you too in love to let it go

If you never try you´ll never know

Just watch and learn

Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you



After Vale Becker presentation, there was a song playing in my mind all day long, which is the one above and it is called FIX YOU and it is sang by COLDPLAY (one of my favorite bands).
As Vale said before the video presentation, for her that song meant an important turning point in a Moment in her life in which she thought of giving up because frustration, sadness and desperation Were much stronger than hope and faith – But after listening to the song she started realizing About what life truly is and all the amazing things that God had prepared for her. It sounds a bit strange, because it’s just a song, but during my life I came to realize that there are some songs That have such a strong message that are able to save you or even destroy you.

When I moved to Tucuman in 2005 my life became a living hell in which I didn’t find something To believe in: my sister was gone as well as my father, my mum was destroyed because Of all the economical and family problems we had, I was starting a new life and in regard I was Missing My B.A classmates so much that I couldn't stand all the new people that surrounded me.
To sum up, I had created a chaos in which I was slowly drowning and there was no one out there that could At least save me – It was really hard, I remember, because I cried like three times a day and I didn’t want to Go to school and the times I went I spent long minutes locked in the restrooms far away from all the boys And girls that nowadays are my classmates.
Little by little I started to find the answers and the correct directions to a brad new and different life from The one I used to have in B.A – There were new people and a whole new scenario in comparison to the One I grew up. I must confess that in the beginning I didn’t care at all about what was going on in YB Or San Miguel, I just wanted to go back home and living all the chaos and sadness behind at least For a week. But eventually, things started to
change – DRASTICALLY CHANGED.
The most amazing and Greatest thing that happened to me during these years was to know the Focolaris Movement and its Principles as well as their ideals. And this awesome moment actually happened to me during living in Tucuman (in the place and moment I expected in the less). This movement have given me like an 80 % of what I truly am and thanked to it I have met amazing People and I was able to have experiences that only a few have the opportunity to have.
I have changed a lot since I met the movement and of course I am a completely different person Since I came back from O’HIGGGINS, which is a city that directly belongs to the FOCOLARIS and it is Located in B.A providence – like an hour away from Junin.
I was in O’higgins for a month but the time spent there is unforgettable and will be presented in my Life until my final days. Thanks to them I have discovered GOD and everything he represented. I am proud to say that I love my GOD more than anything else and that right in this moment I am The happiest person in the world because I am never alone, HE is always besides me – I am so happy Because I let him get in my soul and since that moment he have never left my side.
In conclusion, these 2 and a half years have meant a lot to me – not only because of all the Suffering but also for the beautiful experiences I was able to live with different persons and in
Different places! Thanks to all the difficult problems, I am able to claim nowadays that I have more than what I need to be REALLY, BUT REALLY HAPPY.
So, the song above have been by me side since the moment I moved to Tucuman in 2005 and
It sounded whenever I was sad or happy, depressed or full of faith – It have been my best
Friend in the long and cloudy nights and in the shiny and lovely days.
“Fix you” meant and means an important part of my life in which everything changed, in which I Changed. It was the melody that gave me the strength enough to keep on walking in this world.

2 comments:

CAL said...

Wow, Piru! You've spilled your guts in this entry. I'm glad you've finally found solace and are enjoying your life here in Tucuman.

Val said...

Flor!! My name is written there... XD Wow! Yes, I consider myself a person who has a different song for each part of my life... And that is one of the greatest ones, I can say, the one that helped me the most, and one that now I really respect, and am thankfull to... it's just great not only for what it says, shows, etc, but also what it means to me; what it've done in me.

I remember those times... And let me say you were a closed girl! I don't know... I must admit that we didn't try to get close to you (We never got close as we were before you left, until last year!)Maybe that's the reason... don't know. But it's wonderful to read that now you feel happy in this city! It's like a revival, you've finally found your place...

Then, talking about GOD... I want to share sth with you. Maybe you've already read it, and it is stuck on one of the library's shelf side. Here it is:



Huellas, Anónimo.
Anoche tuve un sueño.
Soñé que caminaba por la playa
en compañía del Señor.
En la pantalla de la noche
se proyectaban los días de mi vida.
Miré hacia atrás y vi huellas
sobre la arena:
una huella mía y otra del Señor.

Cuando se acabaron mis días
me paré y miré hacia atrás.
Vi que en algunos sitios
había solo una huella...
Esos sitios coincidían con los días
de mayor angustia, de mayor miedo,
de mayor dolor en mi vida.

Entonces le pregunté al Señor:
"Tú dijiste que ibas a estar conmigo
todos los días de mi vida...
¿Por qué me dejaste sólo
justo en los peores momentos?..."

El Señor me respondió:
"Los días que has visto
una sola huella sobre la arena,
han sido los días en los
que te he llevado en mis brazos."