* A man, the Rain, and a Couple of Days *

It’s Raining again,
Reeling my mind,
To those couple of days.
The man and the rain;
Pouring on my windowpane.
That bus and the station…
Still so close,
Again we can be within reach.
These waters hold, in my heart,
Fading memories of our time apart.
The story I relate
With sincere glad adulate.
Of a man, the rain and a couple of days.

* IN THIS TOGETHER *

Should I've seen this coming?
Should I've known this, shouldn't have let this happen
My mistake alright, stuck again
Doing my thing
Too alike, yet far apart
What felt so good once is breaking me
And tearing us apart again

Don't you see
We're in this together,
You and me
One on one forever

I know it's self-inflicted
We're way to desperate
Way to addicting
But I cant help the way I feel
I know it's time to be strong
Now when all hope is gone
And when what felt so good once is breaking me
And tearing us apart again

AND IN YOUR TROUBLED EYES I CAN SEE
SOMEONE WHO CARRIED ME SOMEHOW
LIKE FOOTPRINTS IN THE SAND
You've been behind me all along
We got it wrong from the start
Now it's you and me let's hit it on

Don't you see it's you and me against the world
'cause we're in this together,
You and me
One on one forever

This song belongs to one of the commercials of my favorite TV series: ER
I have watched ER since I was 11 years old and ever since I have become obsessed with it because although it has been in the air for 15 years (yes, I know, a lot) every season there are new and fresh stories as well as characters and and special guesses. It's been so long since ER is produced that thanks to it George Clooney became one of the most famous personalities of Hollywood.
It is quite difficult to explain what the show is about. On one hand because it has changed through time in every aspect but always with a main theme which is carrying on with life always knowing that you have chosen to live for the others and not for you. All the characters are doctors whose specialty is the emergency room and each episode there is a new struggle in different situations and patients. And time to time the producers broadcast quite shocking episodes that seems to be so real and they are perfectly well-done that once it has finished you stand in front of the TV thinking about nothing else rather what you have just watched.
Through all the years I have watched the program there have always been some episodes that have shocked me in such intensive way that I would never forget them. For example the ones that were filmed in Africa, exactly in the Republic of the Congo, in which one of the main doctors decides to go there to be part of the Red Cross volunteers. In these episodes many realities are shown as I have never seen them before: the way the doctors have to work, the facilities scarcity, the terrorists attitude towards the volunteers and the native citizens, the government corruption, to name a few. After watching these episodes I started making some research on the topic and I started to develop brand new skills and opinions towards different themes, poverty, discrimination, who I wanna be, etc. Of course what I am telling you happened when I was younger - but what I am telling you carried me to be and to react and to perform as I do.

I am one of those people who think that music and TV have an unique potential that must be exploded but in the right and appropriate way. I have always learned a lot from those lyrics that say a lot about society, politics, history as well as from those series and journalistic programs that teach you about the world encouraging you to be day by day a better and more prepared person.

. We are nOt alone .

. . . I am groping about in this painful darkness, so alone and full of spiritual tears, a silent cry that reaches out beyond the infinite galaxies, directed to heaven with a resounding echo. But where are you? Why don’t you say something? What are you busy doing while I cry out my pain, my powerlessness, my solitude? Just clench your teeth, I told myself, and believe beyond all of this that you feel. Believe beyond that which is unbelievable, beyond the impossible, lose everything. Nothing, nothing should remain. I felt my soul crying. I had nothing left, a nothingness that was filled with everything, God alone . . .

but the answer always arrives * *

. . April Melodies * *

She closes her eyes because she doesn't wanna accept the truth about herself, myself . .

She looks up to the sky trying to find the sun as a source of illumination . . She tries to find the stars in order to reach happiness before dying. She has always loved the sea and the April sky as well as walking down the main street during winter time and the summer's poetry written in her hand.
She is such a mystery for me. She is a lover of everything that no one can see - She is a dreamer ever since she knew about her destiny.

She is who I wanna be - She is the mystery I am going to discover when she'd let me get in to the place where I have always wanted to be . . . .
HER WORLD

. . . the places you have come to fear the most *

The places you Have come to Fear the Most * *

"Buried deep as you can Dig inside yourself, And covered with A perfect shell, Such a charming Beautiful exterior. Laced with a brilliant smile And shining eyes Perfect posture But you're barely scraping by You're barely scraping by This is one time That you can't fake It hard enough to please Everyone or anyone at all. And the grave that You refuse to leave The refuge that You've built to flee The places that You have come to fear the most. Buried deep as you can Dig inside yourself, And hidden in the public eye. Such a stellar Monument to loneliness. Laced with brilliant smiles And shining eyes And perfect makeup But you're barely scraping by"

I am a coward, such a coward, that I always write what I feel because I don't what to cry over these feelings - I don't want to even realize that I am living within them.

I am a piece of poetry that is just telling all about the essence of sadness and fear

I am the happiest person when you are by my side
when I am able to kiss your blessed lips
when I am able to love you just in a simply sigh.
when cold turns to be a metaphor when our bodies come together
when your words are lyrics for my soul.

I am really happy . . when you are happy too.

But, what happen when you don't wanna be happy in the same way I wanna be? You start messing up my whole world at your own way, believing that you are such a magnificent artist that you are able to conquer foreign eyes just to leave them later on.
You play as you wouldn't know the rules - You play as the same way the wind plays ignoring my presence every now and then.

You are such a blind, deaf and heartless person . . .

Eyes that cannot see a poor girl who gives her life for your poetry; Ears that cannot hear myself yelling at night and heart that doesn't want to receive sincere and real love.
You are a coward, such a coward, that you always write what you feel because you don't what to cry over those feelings - You don't want to even realize that you are living within them.

Life has always treated you in the worst and hardest way, you have always cried endless salty rivers, Life has always been your worst enemy

But I just wanted to be your friend
I just wanted to simply love you twenty four seven
I just wanted to show you up in the sky the sun shining constantly
I just wanted to heal your injuries, to dry your tears once for all.
I just wanted to be part of your unique and lovely smile.

You didn't accept me - You wanted to - But you couldn't because your cowardice and fear didn't allow you to do it. And I cried you ever since you left me.

The truth is that I have never stopped loving you.

Linkin Park - What I've Done

IT'S JUST GREAT (:

IN THIS FAREWELL,
THERE’S NO BLOOD,
THERE’S NO ALIBI.
‘CAUSE I’VE DRAWN REGRET,
FROM THE TRUTH,
OF A THOUSAND LIES.

SO LET MERCY COME,
AND WASH AWAY…

WHAT I’VE DONE.
I’LL FACE MYSELF,
TO CROSS OUT WHAT I’VE BECOME.
ERASE MYSELF,
AND LET GO OF WHAT I’VE DONE.

PUT TO REST,
WHAT YOU THOUGHT OF ME.
WHILE I CLEAN THIS SLATE,
WITH THE HANDS,
OF UNCERTAINTY.

SO LET MERCY COME,
AND WASH AWAY…

WHAT I’VE DONE.
I’LL FACE MYSELF,
TO CROSS OUT WHAT I’VE BECOME.
ERASE MYSELF,
AND LET GO OF WHAT I’VE DONE.

FOR WHAT I’VE DONE

I START AGAIN,
AND WHATEVER PAIN MAY COME.
TODAY THIS ENDS,
I’M FORGIVING WHAT I’VE DONE.

I’LL FACE MYSELF,
TO CROSS OUT WHAT I’VE BECOME.
ERASE MYSELF,
AND LET GO OF WHAT I’VE DONE.
(NA NA NA NA, NA NA NA NA, NA NA NA NA, NA NA NA NA)
WHAT I’VE DONE.

"All day long with heavY metAl songs by your side"

Just a phase . .

"I do no longer belong to these lands,
I have been forgotten and
I stand alone, trying to stay alive"

"Arms that are invisibles to the eyes but not to the soul

that protect you and dry the tears from your face.
An unconditional friend who is by your side everywhere at the moment you need it.
It brings you the chance to dream, the freedom to escape.
It brings you the opportunity to fly at least for a while . . "

"I feel so empty here without you. I am looking for you, where are you now?
Where is the man, that long time ago, showed me the way life of the hopeless people could change into something amazing? - You have gone. You are not where I left you.
The chains are on the floor and you are not tied to them. You have walked away leaving me here, alone , with nothing else to do or to feel."

"But my destiny has been already chosen and I can’t change it. So it ‘s the end of a story without a sky, without a sun. A story with darkness all around."

((this phases where written by me when I was 13 years old))

Dear Mary Poppins,

"The biggest word you ever head and this is how it goes
Oh, supercalifragilistic expialidocious
Even though the sound of it is
something quite atrocious
If you say it loud enough
you'll always sound precocious
Supercalifragilistic expialidocious"

"A spoonful of sugar helps the medicine go down
The medicine go down - Medicine go down
Just a spoonful of sugar helps the medicine
go down in the most delightful way"



"Have you even seen
The grass so green
Or a bluer sky
Oh, it's a jolly holiday with Mary
Mary makes your heart so light
When the day is gray and ordinary
Mary makes the sun shine bright
Oh, happiness is blooming all around her
The daffodils are smiling at the dove
When Mary holds your hand you feel so grand
Your heart starts beating like a big brass band"

"While the moon drifts in the skies

Stay awake don't close your eyes

Though the world is fast asleep

Though your pillow's soft and deep

You're not sleepy as you seem

Stay awake don't nod and dream

Stay awake don't nod and dream"  

Dear Mary Poppins,
DO NEVER FORGET THAT THE LITTLE CHILDREN NEED YOU BECAUSE YOU BRING TO US THE REAL MEANING OF BELIEVING . .

YOU MAKE OURSELVES REMEMBERED THAT WE ARE FULL OF IMAGINATION . .

IN YOUR WORLD THERE IS NO SADNESS NEITHER PAIN.

YOUR WORLD IS WHERE DRAMS COME TRUE . . WE WANT TO LIVE WHERE YOU LIVE MARY POPPINS.

THANK YOU FOR GIVING US SOMETHING WORTH LIVING FOR,

THANK YOU FOR MAKING US REALIZED THAT OUR HEART IS MUCH MORE STRONGER THAN OUR MIND.

YOU ARE WHAT EVERY HUMAN BEING NEEDS
A SPOONFUL OF SUGAR

The perfect song in an Imperfect Moment *

I don't mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
I don't like illusions I can't see
Them clearly

I don't care no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually
What you'll do

I don't mind…
I don't care…
As long are you're here

Go ahead tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same

Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
And in between it always seems too long
All of a sudden

And I have the skill, yeah I have the will
To breathe you in while I can
However long you stay
Is all that I am

I don't mind…
I don't care…
As long are you're here

Wrong or right
Black or white
If I close my eyes
I's all the same

In my life
The compromise
I close my eyes
It's all the same

((thanks Vale M for showing me this song))

I would like to close my eyes and never opening them again at least for a while.

There are feeling and thoughts that I keep inside of me hidden from the outside world; no one knows about them, sometimes not even myself. But recently I felt that I couldn't keep on fighting on my own. I simply felt that I wanted to give up just for a few minutes because the weight on my shoulders was killing me.
I decided to go to Church early in the evening in order to pray before Mass.
It was only me and him although it was full of people on their knees giving themselves into his grace. I cried and I laughed; I read the two first lectures and I asked him to help all of us to live each day with happiness and faith.

These three hours in Church were the only hours of peace that I had during my whole weekend - Yes, it was a harsh weekend indeed. And at some point I felt weak and abandoned and I am still feeling a little like that.
Right in this moment I am not feeling well and I just need someone to hug me because I am sad.

The song above is the perfect song with the perfect rhythm for this imperfect moment in which my home is a broken home, when I am missing both of you too much and I am feeling under pressure almost every minute of every hour of every day.

I love spring time and the blue sky with its perfect clouds