I have just arrived from watching a movie called "Blood Diamond" and I am still shocked, and I truly think that I would be shocked for too many months.
I couldn't help crying during and in the end of the movie, in a way I felt guilty because I do have everything and more than what I need to live, in another way because I do anything to help those people, those KIDS and finally I realized that I cried because it made me realized that all of us don't know a little f*cking thing about anything that is going on somewhere else besides our tiny world.

I do believe in God - I love my God more than anything else in this world because HE never leaves me alone and HE is my faith by which I keep on living and walking through life.
But I have to confess that today I will be the one that judge HIM and ask him WHY DO YOU ABANDON THEM? I have met your grace and your wisdom - I know about your love towards us, your sons - You have showed me that you are real, that you are the greatest thing that WE AS HUMAN BEINGS HAVE.
So, I don't understand HOW ARE PEOPLE KILL EACH OTHER WHILE LIVING IN A SAME COMMUNITY WITH THE SAME RELIGION AND THE SAME STANDARD OF LIVING? WHY ARE CHILDREN KIDNAP AND TRANSFORM INTO SOLDIERS? - WHY DO WE PERMIT THIS TO HAPPEN? - WHY DO YOU PERMIT THIS TO HAPPEN? -


When I was 14 years old I thought that my destiny was to travel to Africa, exactly to the Democratic Republic of Congo, because I felt that I have too many since I was a kid and the children from there haven't have nothing at all since they were born - And they live in such a great and inhuman condition; those who don't have HIV, they have mortal diseases that were defeated in the first world during the Industrial Revolution. Or those kids and adults that die because malnutrition because they don't have even the food to eat at least once a day.
So, then everyone judged me that while my country was also dying because of malnutrition I would left and go to another continent - So I decided to stay and to study and to achieved the knowledge necessary to become a decent politician and help MY nation to become a great nation and solving poverty, injustice and inequality.
But then, today I realized that maybe my dear God doesn't want me here but there. Once He sent me a phase from the bible that claims: "Quiero que se comporten como verdaderos discípulos del Evangelio de Cristo" - This phase has become my destiny, my purpose in life byt which I would march towards my finally meeting with God. The meaning of this phase which is a long written piece gave me the answers to all my doubts about my future, about every single uncertain thing that I had.
Now, I become to realize that while I was asking HIM why did he permit that situation in Africa, I wasn't asking me WHY DID I PERMIT THAT SITUATION? My mother told me some minutes ago that I wasn't able to help them, AM I? I don't know and I do not want to know because I believe in grace and I believe in hope - I believe that peace and love is much more stronger than death, desolation and some destructive weapons as well as power, money and ambitious people.

As I live day by day I find myself facing different kind of situations - Now, I find myself thinking that while some of us are thinking about the trip to Bariloche or whatever, others are dying - others are being kidnap to be taught to become soldiers at my age or maybe younger than me.
While millions of people have lost everything because of war and poverty I am flighting to USA in a trip family.
While billions haven't have not even food enough to eat once in a day I am thinking about not eating in the next trip to the mountains just because I find myself too fat. And not just me is willing to give up eating . . We just don't know or care about what we f*cking have.

I sward that I try to learn every day of my life something about what's going on around the world, or at least to realize that our bubble it is not the real world.
Until now I thought that I wasn't living in my "metro cuadrado" but now I came to realize that yes I was.

So, I write this monologue to make me remember that I have a compromise with not only my society but with a whole continent - I believe in my God and I believe in myself. This is what, in the end, I truly Have.

Maybe one day every one of us will compromise to live for himself and for the others and that would be the day in which the world 'd start to be different - too dammed different.

- Written promises -

Open up your soul to what uncertain is
Always remembering that everything may happen
And you would be able to stand up to it painfully
Or love it at every moment of your life now and there.

Living in a strange world for me
I am trying to survive to so much news
I am trying to learn to as I haven't learned before.

I can't do it perfectly,
I can't believe what it is about
The words that I would never speak
are uncertainties to my heart

I am wishing to live in an eternal dream forever.

Deep changes to an infinite direction
It is so dammed hard to understand what it 's impossible to understand
I would love to know it all by once
And being perfect to his eyes
But I know that I will find you in each one of them
And I will love you and worship you because you mean everything to me

I know that it is true
And I will eternally live
I know that you have always been by me side
And I promise you I WILL NEVER ABANDON YOU
FROM NOW TO THE REST OF MY LIFE.

Please come back again and rescue me.
Don´t think that I´m playing with you because I´m not.
Let me know that there´s something to live for
Tell me you love me please, I´m not asking for more .
I should have known that you would go away without any explanation.
I would be happy if I could enter to your life, but I have no invitation.
I should have known you couldn´t be that nice
I should have known soon after you said "I love you"
you would said "Goodbye". In a way, that´s allright
I have no more illusions now I see things just as they are

But I miss so much your smile...

. ComparisoNs based oN FahrenhEit 451 * * .

• In my opinion, on one hand education nowadays is quite different from the one that it is described in the book but on the other hand has certain characteristics in common. In this way, I am able to point out that we are allowed to express ourselves freely and to have our own points of view in relation with different aspects of the daily life or universal themes. Also, we are taught several subjects along hight school: arts, philosophy, sociology, maths, geography,languages, etc; and at the same time we are given the opportunity to play sports and hanging out with our friends and classmates during break time. Undoubtly, we have freedom enough to communicate and talk with each other as well as to establish relationships with the adults and every single person we would turn into.
  
• But it's quite true that teenagers these days love to break up things, or to race on the streets and being completely unconscious with what might caused huge problems for themselves and the others, as it can be cars. Also, it is common for teenagers to fight with each other and hate one another because of shallow reasons, as it can be different social classes, or religion, girls (or boys), political principles, etc. On the other hand, TV, videogames and any kind of technological element have full filled their life and they have forgotten about the outside world and all the things worth living for.
  
• Another serious problem we have nowadays is the lack of interest in books, instructive television or the scarcity of desire to know what is going on in the world these days, about politics, economics or at least to read the newspaper or watch the news every now and then.
  
• So, in our society often happens that any person who is a little different from the rest is immediately discriminated and left aside from the rest, just because doesn't live in "the box"
  

BroKen dreaMs * *

this was written last year ! :)

Not everything is broken from the beginning
Always someone destroys it.
Conscious or not about the damage caused
He possess it, and he lives it and then he abandons it.
Maybe it was worthless for him at all
Or maybe it truly meant everything
Actually, I don't know with certainty
I just know that every one of us is a little
Unconscious
Mean
Or lair

I have been used by thousands
Well, maybe not by so many
But it feels like that
Because my heart broken is in a million pieces of curse
And who is the one that caused it ?
I know it, but I would never tell you.

It's true that for love I do not cry that often
And that after a "pain week"
Everything is left behind and I come back to my daily life
It's the way I get through all my shadows and anguishes
Like it or not, this is the way I was educated.

Stupidly, I would never stop bleeding
My broken heart have quited love forever.

It's too difficult to survive to this materialistic logic
And living in this nonsense place faking that everything is going well.
The truth is that I am NOT ok. And no one can see it -

I have chosen long time ago to get by dreaming the whole day
Just because I am happier with fantasy surrounding me,
But it hurts me anyway, more than never.
So, up to here I have survived . . . .

Disappearing little by little in my own ,
Look for myself where the dreams are not dreams anymore
Look for me in that distant place where the deaths destroy everything, even what it is already dead .