I have just arrived from watching a movie called "Blood Diamond" and I am still shocked, and I truly think that I would be shocked for too many months.
I couldn't help crying during and in the end of the movie, in a way I felt guilty because I do have everything and more than what I need to live, in another way because I do anything to help those people, those KIDS and finally I realized that I cried because it made me realized that all of us don't know a little f*cking thing about anything that is going on somewhere else besides our tiny world.

I do believe in God - I love my God more than anything else in this world because HE never leaves me alone and HE is my faith by which I keep on living and walking through life.
But I have to confess that today I will be the one that judge HIM and ask him WHY DO YOU ABANDON THEM? I have met your grace and your wisdom - I know about your love towards us, your sons - You have showed me that you are real, that you are the greatest thing that WE AS HUMAN BEINGS HAVE.
So, I don't understand HOW ARE PEOPLE KILL EACH OTHER WHILE LIVING IN A SAME COMMUNITY WITH THE SAME RELIGION AND THE SAME STANDARD OF LIVING? WHY ARE CHILDREN KIDNAP AND TRANSFORM INTO SOLDIERS? - WHY DO WE PERMIT THIS TO HAPPEN? - WHY DO YOU PERMIT THIS TO HAPPEN? -


When I was 14 years old I thought that my destiny was to travel to Africa, exactly to the Democratic Republic of Congo, because I felt that I have too many since I was a kid and the children from there haven't have nothing at all since they were born - And they live in such a great and inhuman condition; those who don't have HIV, they have mortal diseases that were defeated in the first world during the Industrial Revolution. Or those kids and adults that die because malnutrition because they don't have even the food to eat at least once a day.
So, then everyone judged me that while my country was also dying because of malnutrition I would left and go to another continent - So I decided to stay and to study and to achieved the knowledge necessary to become a decent politician and help MY nation to become a great nation and solving poverty, injustice and inequality.
But then, today I realized that maybe my dear God doesn't want me here but there. Once He sent me a phase from the bible that claims: "Quiero que se comporten como verdaderos discípulos del Evangelio de Cristo" - This phase has become my destiny, my purpose in life byt which I would march towards my finally meeting with God. The meaning of this phase which is a long written piece gave me the answers to all my doubts about my future, about every single uncertain thing that I had.
Now, I become to realize that while I was asking HIM why did he permit that situation in Africa, I wasn't asking me WHY DID I PERMIT THAT SITUATION? My mother told me some minutes ago that I wasn't able to help them, AM I? I don't know and I do not want to know because I believe in grace and I believe in hope - I believe that peace and love is much more stronger than death, desolation and some destructive weapons as well as power, money and ambitious people.

As I live day by day I find myself facing different kind of situations - Now, I find myself thinking that while some of us are thinking about the trip to Bariloche or whatever, others are dying - others are being kidnap to be taught to become soldiers at my age or maybe younger than me.
While millions of people have lost everything because of war and poverty I am flighting to USA in a trip family.
While billions haven't have not even food enough to eat once in a day I am thinking about not eating in the next trip to the mountains just because I find myself too fat. And not just me is willing to give up eating . . We just don't know or care about what we f*cking have.

I sward that I try to learn every day of my life something about what's going on around the world, or at least to realize that our bubble it is not the real world.
Until now I thought that I wasn't living in my "metro cuadrado" but now I came to realize that yes I was.

So, I write this monologue to make me remember that I have a compromise with not only my society but with a whole continent - I believe in my God and I believe in myself. This is what, in the end, I truly Have.

Maybe one day every one of us will compromise to live for himself and for the others and that would be the day in which the world 'd start to be different - too dammed different.

- Written promises -

Open up your soul to what uncertain is
Always remembering that everything may happen
And you would be able to stand up to it painfully
Or love it at every moment of your life now and there.

Living in a strange world for me
I am trying to survive to so much news
I am trying to learn to as I haven't learned before.

I can't do it perfectly,
I can't believe what it is about
The words that I would never speak
are uncertainties to my heart

I am wishing to live in an eternal dream forever.

Deep changes to an infinite direction
It is so dammed hard to understand what it 's impossible to understand
I would love to know it all by once
And being perfect to his eyes
But I know that I will find you in each one of them
And I will love you and worship you because you mean everything to me

I know that it is true
And I will eternally live
I know that you have always been by me side
And I promise you I WILL NEVER ABANDON YOU
FROM NOW TO THE REST OF MY LIFE.

Please come back again and rescue me.
Don´t think that I´m playing with you because I´m not.
Let me know that there´s something to live for
Tell me you love me please, I´m not asking for more .
I should have known that you would go away without any explanation.
I would be happy if I could enter to your life, but I have no invitation.
I should have known you couldn´t be that nice
I should have known soon after you said "I love you"
you would said "Goodbye". In a way, that´s allright
I have no more illusions now I see things just as they are

But I miss so much your smile...

. ComparisoNs based oN FahrenhEit 451 * * .

• In my opinion, on one hand education nowadays is quite different from the one that it is described in the book but on the other hand has certain characteristics in common. In this way, I am able to point out that we are allowed to express ourselves freely and to have our own points of view in relation with different aspects of the daily life or universal themes. Also, we are taught several subjects along hight school: arts, philosophy, sociology, maths, geography,languages, etc; and at the same time we are given the opportunity to play sports and hanging out with our friends and classmates during break time. Undoubtly, we have freedom enough to communicate and talk with each other as well as to establish relationships with the adults and every single person we would turn into.
  
• But it's quite true that teenagers these days love to break up things, or to race on the streets and being completely unconscious with what might caused huge problems for themselves and the others, as it can be cars. Also, it is common for teenagers to fight with each other and hate one another because of shallow reasons, as it can be different social classes, or religion, girls (or boys), political principles, etc. On the other hand, TV, videogames and any kind of technological element have full filled their life and they have forgotten about the outside world and all the things worth living for.
  
• Another serious problem we have nowadays is the lack of interest in books, instructive television or the scarcity of desire to know what is going on in the world these days, about politics, economics or at least to read the newspaper or watch the news every now and then.
  
• So, in our society often happens that any person who is a little different from the rest is immediately discriminated and left aside from the rest, just because doesn't live in "the box"
  

BroKen dreaMs * *

this was written last year ! :)

Not everything is broken from the beginning
Always someone destroys it.
Conscious or not about the damage caused
He possess it, and he lives it and then he abandons it.
Maybe it was worthless for him at all
Or maybe it truly meant everything
Actually, I don't know with certainty
I just know that every one of us is a little
Unconscious
Mean
Or lair

I have been used by thousands
Well, maybe not by so many
But it feels like that
Because my heart broken is in a million pieces of curse
And who is the one that caused it ?
I know it, but I would never tell you.

It's true that for love I do not cry that often
And that after a "pain week"
Everything is left behind and I come back to my daily life
It's the way I get through all my shadows and anguishes
Like it or not, this is the way I was educated.

Stupidly, I would never stop bleeding
My broken heart have quited love forever.

It's too difficult to survive to this materialistic logic
And living in this nonsense place faking that everything is going well.
The truth is that I am NOT ok. And no one can see it -

I have chosen long time ago to get by dreaming the whole day
Just because I am happier with fantasy surrounding me,
But it hurts me anyway, more than never.
So, up to here I have survived . . . .

Disappearing little by little in my own ,
Look for myself where the dreams are not dreams anymore
Look for me in that distant place where the deaths destroy everything, even what it is already dead .

Fahrenheit 451 *

"He glanced back at the wall. How like a mirror, too, her face. Impossible; for how many people did you know that refracted your own light to you? People were more often - he searched for a simile, found one in his work - torches, blazing away until they whiffed out. How rarely did other people's faces take to you and throw back to you your own expression, your own innermost trembling thought?"

As we walk through our life which in a way it is make up by God's will we find lots of people, occasions and moments that we would never forget just because they were too special for us. Sometimes we really don't know the reason why we tend to remember some specific details or events or maybe also persons that through the years came to the encounter with us but in the end we come to realize that we still remember them because they shocked us or gave us everything we needed: a smile, a shoulder, the exact words or their soul.
I think that my life wouldn't be the same without those people and moments that come to my mind in this precise minute because I have learned so much from them; they helped me to be the person I am; they simply game everything a person needs to be really happy.
But the hardest part of this beautiful speech is that some of these people is no longer beside me or those moments "have gone" because they live in my past just because I moved from city to city and consequently started having new experiences with a whole changed scenario.

At this point of my life in which I am 17 years old I must confess that I am happier than never before because my life is make up by people that,as Montag said, knows every little single about you; they are able to say things before you do or to think the exact same thing that you are thinking. My life is make up by persons that, as Fahrenheit 451 claims in page 18, are unique just because they reflect what you truly are.

The Rose * *

The rose of my dreams with hidden hopes.

The rose with spines that have killed my soul along with your departure.

The rose that dies each time you say goodbye

The rose that turns grey each time I cry

The rose that you left me as a signal of oblivion.

The rose that yesterday I through along with my heart to the empty ocean.

The rose that means nothing at all.

The rose that I thought I loved as I Loved You but that it just turned into death dash.

The rose that you through to my grave after knowing that I have died for you.

Follow up * , mY persOnaL reaciOn towardS "You 2.0"

As we started reading the text named "You 2.0" different source of thoughts and conclusions came to my mind as the result of a great variety of subjects and information about ourselves.

In order to begin I would like to mention the paragraph that I prefer the most which is the following one: "You could quit your banking job and open an antiques shop or move to Romania to live with your online love. But what if it doesn't work out? What will everyone say about you then? The fear of public humiliation can keep us safe, if not content. Simply ask, What is the likehood that the thing I fear will come true? And then If it doesn't come true, will it really be as come true? And then "If it does come true, will it really be as bad as I think? Our minds tend to cue the worst-case scenario, what psychologists call awfulizing".
So, after a deep discussion about what did Lubetking wanted to say I concluded that all human beings tend to analyze every single and tiny aspect of a THING, and as "thing" I considered decisions towards our jobs, studies, personal life, and others, just because is human nature. It's true that it partly depends on the personality each of us have but we can't deny that we usually see half of the glass empty and not the full one. In this way, why do we punish our minds and hearts so much before making a step forward in our life? But to include more pressure to the case we also care too much about what the rest of the people will think about us in case we do wrong. In my opinion, it's true that spontaneity it is quite good and effective in many occasions but on the other hand it is important to think twice before making any decision. But at the moment of doing something we should have present not what does everyone going to say or only the negative aspects; we should be able to act as a result of our true and deepest wishes and desires and doing what we think that it's the best having in mind that not always is going to have the best results but that it's like this it's just because it's not what God wanted for us in the end.

Another paragraph I would like to point out is the one that claims the following: "Analyzing risk in the classic Should I stay or should I go? scenario can bring on headaches or even paralysis. Lubetkin recommends that you write down the pros and cons of each situation and then weight them numerically, according to how important they are to you. But then you must also factor in the more subjective "gut" feelings. Flip a coin in order to hypothetically decide your fate, then take note of how you react to the outcome". It's so true that many times we would like to walk away from our problems, hard decisions or the usual and boring routine but on the other hand after thinking the easiest way out we started analyzing the fact to run towards to all those situations mentioned before and started thinking the best solution for each of them. I have to confess that I personally love that song that belongs to an excellent British band called "The Clash".
But I have to disagree with the author's opinion about the different ways to decide between two or more solutions. We tend to think about the advantages and disadvantages as an aspect to make a decision but also another ones as well. On the other hand I don't think that flipping a coin as a way to decide our future is not a great suggestion because we should have present that hard and difficult fate steps must be taken after analyzing the whole context as ONE concrete thing.

To sum up, I think that "You 2.0" is a quite interesting text through which we can learn different aspects of human beings and to learn about them. We have the chance to point out useful tips.But there are suggestions and elements that in my opinion are not that useful and that actually do not help at all in the moment of making hard and important decisions. Of course that is my personal opinion !

¬ A woman , *

A woman waits for you sitting in a marble made of roses
She is wishing to her inside to live today
As she didn't do yesterday
A woman whose sight is lost in the horizon
Just trying at least for one day feel loved

A woman waits with saintly patience for you to pass through there
And to notice her presence once in a while
She only wants spontaneity to happen as the rain does
A woman who appreciate herself for what she does
But not for who she is - Never understanding that you neither love her

A woman waits for you hoping that today you would invite her to dream
She is thinking to herself about the places to go - She do not remember that you will not appear
A woman that loves you so much - Stupidly crazy about your manners wants to tell you that . .

THINKING ABOUT YOU SHE IS
ASKING TO HERSELF WHY DON'T YOU EVER
GOING TO KISS HER SOUL WITH YOUR WORDS

A woman waits for you with my name and my smile painted in her silent face